Blending Home Country & American Culture:
Meet The Brave Magician

As part of honoring our commitment to cultural humility and anti-oppressive practices in research, the CIAB team took great care in honoring the voices of all of our participants and gained feedback each step of the way through collaboration with the Asian American community.

The Brave Magician’s Tracklist

The Past

Anne With An E Scene Intro-0:14

We Are! (One Piece OP 1)- Crusty 0:14-0:54

Lemon- Kenshi Yonezu  0:54-2:36

Older- Alec Benjamin 2:36-3:57

People Watching- Conan Gray 3:57-5:45

The Present

This Is Me (The Greatest Showman)- Various Artists 5:45-6:06

This Is Home- Cavetown 6:06-6:55

ODORIKO By Vaundy (slowed)- 6:55-7:59

The Future

I Wanna Be a Boy- Addison Grace 7:59-9:03

Zenzenzense Movie Ver.- RADWIMPS 9:03-13:33

Rewrite The Stars- The Greatest Showman 13:33-End

The Brave Magician

The Brave Magician struggles with feeling distanced from their cultural roots while trying to fit into American culture. This internal conflict has led to missing out on typical teenage experiences, such as forming close friendships and encountering first love. As the listener becomes more engaged in the teenager’s journey, they express the vulnerability of quietly exploring their sexual and gender identity. Filled with hope for a brighter future, the teen is inspired by the idea of rewriting their story, seeking a way to carve their path despite their challenges.

We would like to extend our heartfelt thanks to Elizabeth Anglin for her incredible artwork titled The Brave Magician!

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Having been uprooted from their homeland, a brave young magician faces the daunting challenge of adapting to American culture. It’s a struggle many can relate to, feeling lost in a world that seems so different. They begin their CIAB with a heartfelt quote from “Anne with an E,” a touching TV series based on a classic book. In it, an orphan girl is taken from everything she knows in search of a place to call home:

It’s not what the world holds for you; I

t’s what you bring to it.

And you bring so much.

This heartfelt quote resonates with many of people, reminding us of the incredible strength we each hold within. As the  introduction music from the anime “One Piece” plays, it evokes an overwhelming sense of embarking on a new journey together. It captures the hope and anticipation that come with fresh starts, underscoring the promise of brighter days ahead.

あなたの希望と夢をすべて持 (With all your hopes and dreams)

ってきてください!一緒に、(Please come, together)

私たちは探しているす (Where we are looking for)

べてを見つけるでしょう (You will find everything)

ONE PIECE

What begins upbeat turns into longing-

古い記憶の埃を払い落とす (Dust off old memories)

忘れ物を取りに家に帰るよ (I’m going home to get something I forgot.)

うな結局、(In the end)

私にそれを教えてく (Tell em that)

たのはあなたでした (it was you who did it)

取り戻せない幸せもある (Some happiness is irretrievable)

The feeling of melancholy truly envelops the listener in Kenshi Yonezu’s “Lemon,” as the deeply emotional lyrics emphasize the sense of loss and longing. The slow tempo reflects this sorrow, while the gentle combination of drums, violin, and piano creates a comforting yet haunting backdrop. It’s a poignant reminder of the complex emotions we all experience, inviting us to reflect on our own moments of heartache and remembrance.

あの日の悲しみさえも (Even the sadness of that day)

あの日の痛みさえも (Even the pain of that day)

全部大好きだったので、(I loved it all)

あなたと一緒に (With you)

レモンの苦い香りが残る (the bitter lemon sent remains)

私の心に埋め込まれた (embedded in my heart)

雨が止むまでは家に帰れない (I can’t go home until the rain stops)

今でもあなたは私の光です (Even now, you are my light.)

“Lemon” is a touching tribute that expresses the deep pain of losing a beloved grandfather. The weight of grief is a theme that recurs throughout the CIAB journey, echoing the sentiments found in “Older” by Alec Benjamin. In this heartfelt song, Benjamin gently reflects on the passage of time and the bittersweet nature of memories, inviting listeners to connect with their own experiences of loss and the emotional complexities that come with growing older. It’s a moving reminder that while grief can be heavy, it’s also a testament to the love and connection we hold dear.

Guess my childhood is over,

Now I’m taking down my posters,

And I’m telling all my friends

We’ll get together next October,

That’s my closest thing to closure,

I can’t stop this rollercoaster,

I’m not ready to get older,

I’m not ready to get older.

Also,

I know I gotta make a little money then maybe find somebody

To call my own

Mm, I’m not ready but I

Can’t go back in time, I

Know it’s all out my control

Now I know

Guess my childhood is over

 

The brave magician starts off the present with This Is Me from The Greatest Showman letting the listeners know that the teen is exploring a new identity –

I’m gonna send a flood,

Gonna drown ’em out I am brave,

I am bruised I am who I’m meant to be,

This is me.

Attaining love is the primary focus to make up for lost time, albeit a difficult task to achieve –

Often I am upset that I cannot fall in love

But I guess this avoids the stress of falling out of it

Are you tired of me yet?

I’m a little sick right now but I swear,

When I’m ready I will fly us out of here,

I’ll cut my hair.

The present ends with the idea that the teen has found love that is less that ideal (one where they continue to hurt one another) –

Spinning round’ and round’,

My and that person’s future

When it stops somewhere

Let’s hope we can start all over again

Spinning round’ and round’,

If we can all act like victims.

The present is certainly a time of self-discovery for this teen.

As the Brave Magician’s CIAB transitions into the future, they begin with the song “I Wanna Be a Boy” by Addison Grace. The song is about the inner thoughts of what it would be like to be “a boy” and how life would be easier –

I wanna befriend bugs,

Climb tall trees,

Scrape my knees,

And show I am tough,

Only cry in the nighttime,

My bed is the thing I can trust

‘Cause I’ve grown sick of staring hours in the mirror

Moulding cheekbones,

Hope a new face could appear.

AAs a female participant, this choice is compelling and full of potential. It provides a heartfelt reinterpretation of what the listener may have previously believed about missing out on love. It expresses the desire to break free from family constraints and to embrace one’s own desires, inviting a romantic journey toward self-discovery and the pursuit of genuine affection.

The teen’s next song, Zenzenzense from the movie RODWIMPS –

I followed the sound of your innocent laughter

and it guided me in the right way,

Even if every piece of you disappeared and if it scattered everywhere,

No, I wouldn’t waver, I would start back at one look for you all over again,

Or maybe instead I’ll take the whole universe right back to zero again.

Navigating the complexities of sexual and gender identities is an essential journey for a lot of teenagers, often filled with significant challenges that can feel overwhelming. These young individuals frequently grapple with missed opportunities for romance, as societal norms and peer expectations pressure them to fit into narrow molds. The weight of family expectations can impose constraints that stifle personal expression, leaving many teens yearning for the freedom to explore and redefine their identities.

For Asian American teens, these challenges can be particularly intense. The collectivistic nature of many Asian cultures places a strong emphasis on family cohesion and communal values, which can restrict personal authenticity and reinforce traditional roles. However, this backdrop can foster resilience and a profound drive for self-discovery.

While we cannot confirm this experience is the Brave Magician’s identity, it provides a valuable perspective on the unique difficulties faced by these teens. This exploration culminates in a moving conclusion, with the teen sharing a simple yet profound quote from *The Greatest Showman*, encapsulating their inspiring journey of self-acceptance and hope.

Why don’t we rewrite the stars