You Will Find No Mercy From The Unforgiving Warrior

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The Unforgiving Warrior’s Tracklist

The Past

Hilda Series Intro-0:09

Arcane: League of Legends Scene 0:09-0:12

Warrior Nun Scene 0:12-0:34

Hilda Quote 0:34-0:44

Pump It Harder- Black Eyed Peas 0:44-0:47

Hilda Quote 0:47-1:04

Pump It Harder- Black Eyed Peas 1:04-2:30

Prom Dress- mxmtoon 2:30-3:03

My Ordinary Life- The Living Tombstone 3:03-4:10

The Present

Arcane: League of Legends Scene 4:10-4:15

Snakes (From Arcane League of Legends)- PVRIS and MIYAVI 4:15-6:05

The Future

Christmas Kids- Roar 10:48-11:50

Another Road- Rachel Aggs and VIce Cooler 11:50-13:18

Warrior Nun Scene 13:18-End

The Unforgiving Warrior

We would like to extend our heartfelt thanks to Elizabeth Anglin for her incredible artwork titled The Unforgiving Warrior!

An intense and unrelenting teen is willing to protect those they love while embracing their newfound identity. This teen repeats several quotes throughout the CIAB with the message “I’m not always going to be easy to love, but if you stick around, you’re in it for the long haul.” This teen is hardened yet easily wounded, and this warrior is confident they won’t be injured in battle ever again.

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The unforgiving warrior begins their CIAB with a series of quotes from different TV shows. The first is a friendly offer of adventure from Arcane: League of Legends, spoken by Hilda –

Our first adventure twig, just you and me.

Where should we go?

It continues with a quote by one of the main characters, Vi, talking to Powder:

You’ve got a good heart.

Don’t ever lose it.

No matter how the world tries to break you.

This advice emphasizes the importance of embracing one’s uniqueness. This advice continues but takes a darker turn, aimed directly at the listener –

I offer mercy to whoever walks away now.

Stay, and you’ll never walk again.

Take her. Never say I didn’t warn you.

The quote is from the series “Warrior Nun.” In this menacing scene, a brutal attack begins to defend someone important, as well as to protect God, who was said earlier to be on the verge of being extinguished from the universe. The moment evokes a sense of both curiosity and dread in the listener. –

I dare you.

Witness my story, but be ready to fight

It is important to note that all three pieces of advice come from TV shows known for their positive LGBT representation. Hilda identifies as a lesbian, Vi identifies as queer, and Beatrice from “Warrior Nun” becomes romantically involved with the main female character of the story.

Moving from friendly to threatening to friendly again is meant to disarm and catch the listener off guard.

Once the listener is warned, the music begins – an empowering song by the Black Eyed Peas (Pump It Harder). The song samples Dick Dale & His Del-Tones (a surf guitarist) and is accompanied by clapping hands; the song is drastically different. It sounds like a car driving down the highway at top speed and lasts about 90 seconds (excerpt):

Blast(ing) your stereo,

Right now (huh)

This joint is fizzlin,’

It’s sizzlin,’

Right Yo, check this out right here.

Then, suddenly, the unforgiving warrior’s CIAB comes to a screeching halt. It is a jarring switch, as if the transition was made as an error, until you realize that perhaps the teen’s story is not about a teen who lived a wild and fast life but one where they were crying at home. The melancholy from Prom Dress (by mxmtoon) is a softer-sounding song using ukulele, acoustic guitar, and piano.

I’m sittin’ here,

Crying in my prom dress,

I’d be the prom queen if crying was a contest

Make-up is running down

Feelings are all around

How did I get here

I need to know-oh-oh

Inside, the unforgiving warrior is struggling, but trying to provide a sense of confidence. The unforgiving warrior wraps up their past with My Ordinary Life by The Living Tombstone. This is another abrupt change in sound, beginning with an extended flute solo. The flute has an Alice in Wonderland falling down the rabbit hole feel to it, as it swirls around in your head only to then morph into a Five Nights at Freddy’s vibe, which isn’t surprising as the band is best known for one of their songs that is featured in the movie version of Five Nights at Freddy’s. The song is a synth-heavy beat accompanied by an auto-tuned/robotic singer.

Do you feel me?

Take a look inside my brain,

The people always different

but it always feel the same,

That’s the real me,

pop the champagne,

The haters wanna hurt me

and I’m laughin’ at the

pain,

         ain,

                 ain,

                        ain

The present begins with Arcane: League of Legends You’ve got a good heart.

Don’t ever lose it.

No matter how the world tries to break you.

Hilda, the speaker, is a queer character who fights authority in a dystopian future. The music begins with Snakes by PVRIS and MIYAVI. It starts as a frenzied sound of fuzzy guitar, reminding us that the teen sees others (us?)

as a snake (excerpt),

you’re a snake,

I can see it in your face,

Ah, do you feel no shame?,

Ah, can’t you see my rage?,

I’m a snake, you’re a snake,

just like a spitting image,

Fate, how’s it taste?

It’s your own medicine,

Make no mistakes,

got 2020 vision,

If I see your face,

don’t think I’m forgiving.

Then, we are transported to another place (Cosmo Sheldrake by Pelicans We):

We live on the Nile,

The Nile we love,

By night we sleep on the cliffs above,

By day we fish,

and at eve we stand,

On long bare islands of yellow sand.

The theme of an ideal life surrounded by nature, protecting them – allowing for romance –

here’s a centipede,

Naked in your bedroom,

Oh, and you swear to God,

The fucker’s out to get you,

And I digress,

‘Cause I must make you the perfect morning

I try my best

and ends with:

And I digress,

‘Cause I must make you the perfect evening.

The romantic tone turns sexual (Look Don’t Touch by Odetari and Cade Clair):

Mm-mm,

I can’t let go,

Girl, you really got my soul

Mm-mm, I can’t let go,

Girl, you really got my soul,

The unforgiving warrior ends the story of their present with Justin Timberlake’s “Sexy Baxck” Back, a confident song about sexual power

You see these shackles baby,

I’m your slave (uh-huh),

I’ll let you whip me, if I misbehave (uh-huh).

The way the songs are sequenced suggests that although safety, romance, and sex are essential to the teen, this is likely mainly happening as inner thoughts rather than outward behaviors.

The relentless warrior envisions a future filled with triumph, yet remains acutely aware of the risks that come with authenticity. They carry themselves with a confident, almost captivating swagger, embodying a cool assurance that commands attention (as seen in “Christmas Kids” by Roar).

And love is a tower where all of us can live 

You’ll change your name or change your mind 

And leave this fucked up place behind 

But I’ll know,

I’ll know I’ll know, 

I’ll know I’ll know.

The song ends with

If you ever try to leave me,

I’ll find you,

Ronnie, If you ever try to leave me,

I’ll find you (4X).

Another Road by Rachel Aggs and Vice Cooler tells the listener 

I look forward,

I look back I have everything I need,

We’ve been lost,

we’ve skipped a track,

So let me, bring you up to speed,

We’re on another road now.

The listener can easily picture a formidable warrior, resolute and fearless, racing into the vibrant embrace of the sunset with their beloved by their side. Yet, just as the teen’s story reaches its  end, the Warrior Nun reappears, her imposing presence a call to action, compelling us to pay attention to her one last time:

I offer mercy to whoever

walks away now.

Stay and you’ll never walk again.

Take her.

Never say I didn’t warn you.